Soul Searching

So I know that I am rather cynical.  I also know that I kind of tell things like they are and don't sugarcoat things all that much.  That having been said, I was told recently that I was far too negative.  That I had a bad attitude and never see the positive in any situation.  I kind of took offense to that because I think that especially lately I have had a very good attitude and have been very positive about the great opportunities God has been placing in our lives and all of our blessings.  Perhaps I need to do some soul searching as I may be having difficulty seeing myself as others do.

God is So Good

Just had a great moment with Lorelai. She said she was having trouble falling asleep because she is nervous about a pretty big opportunity that she has tomorrow.  We held hands and I prayed for her and before my brief prayer was over she was sleeping soundly.  Feeling so blessed that God gave her peace and helped her drift off to sleep.

Feeling Fab at 40

At Peace

I am feeling completely peaceful right now.  The split with former family members is complete and Dan and I are moving on.  He and I and the kids are a unified family, we have God at the center of our family, and life is good.

Feeling Betrayed

So as most all of you know I have a very tumultuous relationship with a family member.  Last week the final straw broke the camel's back and we are no longer speaking or communicating in any form.  During our last conversations both she and her husband revealed that they had heard negative comments about them circulating locally and that I had better watch my mouth.  This is THEIR town and basically we need to watch our backs.  Also, she wants no more communication with us and their family.  I had confided in someone at church about the conflicts so to get some spiritual advice.  This person betrayed me and added fuel to the fire.  I don't know who to trust anymore.  I feel sick.